In a lengthy, raw and emotional post on social media, Braxton wrote “It was only God’s grace and his mercy on my attempt to end my pain and my life that I am here to utilize my voice.”
She revealed she had attempted suicide after suffering “pain” for the past 11 years while working in the entertainment industry as a reality star.
Braxton was hospitalized on July 16 after being found unconscious at a Los Angeles residence.
She began her post by thanking her fans for their support.
“In this present moment, it is my only responsibility to be real with myself and to be real with the ones who truly love me and care for my healing,” she wrote. “I have without fail, shared with you my brightest days, and I know that sharing with you what has been my darkest will be the light for any man or woman who is feeling the same defeat I felt just only a week ago,” she wrote.and sharing with them “what has been my darkest will be the light for any man or woman who is feeling the same defeat I felt just only a week ago.”
She then focused on the pressures of her career and her reality TV series.
“I believed that, that as a black woman, as an artist, an influence, a personality I could shape my world, and with whom I believed to be my partners, they could help me share my world,” Braxton wrote and went on to say that “over the past 11 years there were promises made to protect and portray my story, with the authenticity and honesty I gave. I was betrayed, taken advantage of, overworked, and underpaid.” She said she wrote “a letter over 2 months ago asking to be freed from what I believed was excessive and unfair. I explained in personal detail the demise I was experiencing.” But, she says her cry for help was “totally ignored” and “demands” on her persisted.
“It was my spirit, and my soul that was tainted the most. There are a few things I count on most to be, a good mother, a good daughter, a good partner, a good sister, and a good person,” Braxton said.
Braxton went on to explain that she felt that she was “no longer living” but “was existing for the purpose of corporations gain and ratings, and that killed me.”
Braxton declared that “mental illness is real” and that as a society “we have to normalize acknowledging it and stop associating it with shame and humiliation.”
“The pain that I have experienced over the past 11 years has slowly ate away at my spirit and my mental,” she continued.
The singer/actress said she will now do “everything in my power to aid those from mental illness, including those of us who’s mental illness was only a result from the toxic systematic bondage that dwells television.”
We tv recently postponed her upcoming reality show Get Ya Life! following her hospitalization. Initially set to premiere July 30, it will now debut on September 10.
At the time, WE tv released the following statement:
“Tamar Braxton has been an incredibly important member of the WE tv family for more than a decade, and our first concern is for her recovery and well-being. Given the current situation, we are postponing the premiere of ‘Tamar Braxton: Get Ya Life!’ until September 10. This series was conceived by Tamar and is a real portrait of a dynamic woman juggling the demands of being a single mother, a new relationship and her career. We know, when the time is right, Tamar’s fans will relate to seeing this honest portrait of her life, but – at this moment – we are joining with her fans and sending strength and healing in the hope that she is getting the support and help she needs at this difficult time.”
Braxton also stars in WE tv’s Braxton Family Values, and hosts To Catch a Beautician on VH1.
You can read Braxton’s entire statement below.